Pick up your gifts...

It's a bitter cold day in Cleveland and my son and I are thankfully staying warm at home today. Although Micaiah loves school, when I told him he was staying home because of the weather, he screamed, "Yay!!!"   We just finished lunch with cups of warm mint tea..yum!!

I'm reflecting on this year so far. It's been a fun ride so far, performing, writing and the release of my video, "We Be One" which is receiving such a great response. I'm so grateful. I smile every time I see it! I released my EP, "Find Your Light" which features "We Be One" in 2010, and with the busyness of life and allowing myself to be pulled in different directions, I didn't give it the attention that it deserved. But around mid-2012, I began to feel an extreme uneasiness. I missed being on stage. I missed writing songs, poetry, stories. I missed collaborating with other artists. I missed "getting out there" and making things happen, like when I relentlessly hit the pavement in New York believing with every inch of me that I would eventually land my first Broadway show. I missed me. Now as a mother, life is definitely more of a balancing act and any single parent who is reading this can attest to that. I love being a mommy. It can get overwhelming sometimes, though...real talk. But still there should always be time for "me." I looked up and realized that I was putting me aside. I was sitting on my gifts, squashing them simply by not sharing them enough, not promoting myself consistently and allowing "busyness" to take precedence over my creative passion. Inertia had set in and it would be difficult to write or even think about performing.

But thank God for a new day. Thank God for extreme uneasiness. Thank God for my son, Micaiah, who some months ago said to me in the car, "Mommy, where's your cd? I want to hear it."  I started getting back in shape and focusing on my passion. I've seen where that focus has taken me before and I'm determined to see it take me further. I'm making room for my gifts again so they can make room for me. Thank God that there's always another day to re-emerge, to pick up my gifts and share them with the world.  

I have to create to stay alive. I have to perform to truly live. I have to write to stay intact. 

So this year and beyond, you will see a lot of ME and thank you for coming along as I share my gifts. In the meantime, if you have any gifts or ideas that you are "sitting" on, stand up, pick them up, dust them off and share them with us. The world is your audience...

Click to download "Find Your Light."  Enjoy...

 


36 comments